Finding the happiness in every day.

Somedays I really struggle as a stay at home mom. It's the hardest job on the planet. The tiredness you feel at the end of the day spent with two active children is immeasurable. Every single second of every single day you are needed for something. milk. movie. play time. diaper. nap. food. potty. jeep. bradley. dirt. dinner. husband. attention. There is just always something that is dictating your time. It's exhausting but I do love it. For me, I know this time is temporary as they will be in full time school sooner rather than later. This last week was a rough one around here. I was exhausted from our "vacation" and I think Mason was too. I'm not sure how much he was disciplined in those five days so everything I asked of him was a fight. It's always a fight to put clothes on in the morning, but this past week it was anything and everything I wanted him to do was a fight. even something fun! Amidst all the chaos happening in my house this past week there is happiness in every single day I spend with the boys. 

On Friday I took the boys to the jumping place. We hadn't been in a long time and I thought maybe, just maybe, Mason may enjoy himself and love me for it. Well of course he loves it, but he still didn't listen an ounce to me. I was just taking them by myself and threw out a few texts to friends letting them know we were going. Melanie ended up bringing her boys and I'm so glad she did! I'm always reminded of WHY I don't take the boys to places like this without an extra pair of eyes and hands to help out when all hell breaks lose. Bc let's face it, hell always breaks lose at some point with every outing! All was good and dandy while Melanie and I chatted until I see Mason running out of the bathroom with no pants on bare butt with his underwear and shorts in hand! Yelling of course, Mommy I went potty!!!! Oh my goodness gracious. Melanie and I looked at each other and died laughing. Was this really happening? Was MY son really standing in the filth that is the jumping place half NAKED?! Yep. I quickly grabbed him and put his pants back on. (Hence why having a friend with you at all times is necessary or else Sutton would just be by himself during these moments!) The happiness in that day was definitely sharing this moment with Melanie and not being alone in that crazy moment. 

Yesterday TK picked up Mason and took him to the lake leaving Sutton and I to ourselves for the afternoon. I'm reminded how easy one child is on these days! Sutton had pretty much screamed all day at me for whatever reason, but we found some smiles on the slide late in the afternoon. Sutton is brave. He loves the slides everywhere we go. We have a smaller one in our yard that I let him play on. I'm not brave enough for the big one yet :) BUT when you put him up on the top of the slide, he lets go and pushes himself down. He gets this look on his face of pure excitement and bravery. It was in that moment yesterday that I was reminded of why I stay at home with my boys. To teach them to be brave, explore, and go down the slide all by themselves. (even face first!) Last week he also learned how to climb up the stairs in our little pool and go down the slide face first. I like being the first one to know their "tricks." So for me, among all the dirtiness of my house, constant attention needed, and just plain loudness, I have to hang on to these sweet moments!