Something is stirring....

and NO it's not a baby in my belly :)
i've had a yearning for more lately. nothing more materialistically. we have been beyond blessed with the things we need in this world. more for myself. more for me spiritually. in our bible study week after week we end up talking about "the season of life" we are in. being a mom of young children is definitely an interesting"season" to be in. some days are wonderfully glorious. and some days are crummy feeling. this past season i've had a desire for more. more jesus. more church. more direction and guidance. we've been members at first presbyterian for almost 5 years now. we love a lot about it. but in my desire for more i have had this tugging feeling that we may belong somewhere else. i'm not sure where or why. but the tug has been there and still isn't going away. i've tried to push it aside. so we are visiting a few churches here and there to see what else may be out there for us. i'm not sure if there is a better place but i'm confident that god put these feelings inside of me for a reason and i just have to decipher through them. in the end i know my family will be where we need to be. where we can serve. be known. help. witness. grow as a family.
that wasn't really where my blog post was originally going but oh well :)
for 2013 i started a family challenge. i wanted my family to find something each month to be involved in and serve in some capacity. i was excited in the beginning but now have found it hard to find something for us to do. should it be hard? should it be difficult to find an activity to help with rather than just writing a check to an organization? i don't think it should be! but it is right now. god just hasn't shown the right things to me i guess. i'm not real sure.
as a mom i want to do more. i want to find out my new identity. every stay at home mom struggles with this i'm sure in some way. who am i? why am i here? what am i doing that serves god? what is my true purpose? DUH, I know my true purpose is to be a great mom to my boys. so simple. but i feel like there is something else i should be doing and contributing to. i'm just not sure what it is quite yet. is it mission work? is it a job of some sort? is it just finding a church that i feel we fit better? i really have no idea. i'm excited about what's to come because i KNOW something is coming. i'm not waiting very well though. i want it now. i want to know now. i want it to show it's face now. get the drift? God is good. and he reveals himself in many ways and fashions. i am just waiting to figure out what is next for me all the while finding contentment in my everyday life.