BABY #4

So ALOT has happened since I last blogged. Part shock, exhaustion, overwhelmed by being so far behind, and having too much fun....

Sweet Baby #4 is on the way! Baby, I love you already. You have my heart, you have our future, you have all of our excitement already. Here's your story, you have a GREAT one to always tell. 

In November of 2015 I had a procedure called Essure to prevent any more pregnancies in our future. They put coils in my fallopian tubes which were supposed to block any little babies from being created. The procedure was easy and pretty painless. We chose not to have the dye test done to check that everything was in place because it cost a lot of money and it was in the hospital and was going to be hard to schedule. Fast Forward to Friday, October 21, 2016. I was three weeks late on my period. I didn't really think anything of it, but then again figured I should at least take a pregnancy test. So that Friday morning, Callahan and I were at HEB and I picked one up. Once home, I took the first test. There was one strong pink line and one faint pink line. Just like every other positive test I've ever taken!! Cue the freak out, the high blood pressure, the fear, the holy-cow-omg-what-the-hell feelings. Haha. So I didn't think it would really be positive so I waited a little longer, drank some more water and then took the other test. Again, two faint pink lines. I know what this means. I've been here three times before. I was indeed pregnant. And I was totally freaking out. I immediately called my Doctor and got in for a blood test. There was no way I could wait the weekend and not tell Ryon. So I went to Dr to get blood test right before picking up boys from school and sat by my phone a million minutes that afternoon. When my nurse finally called at 5:00 my phone didn't ring, but luckily she left a message. Her message I'll never forget: "Hey Sara, you are for sure pregnant, and you are a pretty far along. All your numbers are high and so we need you in for a sonogram next week. Congrats!"

oh holy moses, there ya go. pregnant. with a fourth child. after having surgery. what was Ryon going to do? would he be mad, sad, happy, totally freak out like me?

That night the big boys were scheduled to stay with Rick and Teri for the night so I planned on telling Ryon once they were gone. Ryon was working on building his deer blind in our garage, drinking beer, listening to music, and I was so nervous to tell him. He came in the kitchen and I was sitting on the floor playing with Callahan and I just looked up at him and said, "I'm pregnant." I just blurted it out. He looked at me and said, "You're just going to say it, just like that?....What?" So I explained to him about my crazy day and he cried. He just stood there and teared up, happy tears. And it made all my fears go away. It made everything exciting. We really didn't talk about it much that night or the next day really. Callahan and Mason both got the stomach bug a few days later and so we were both just in parent mode. I was able to schedule a Sonogram for that Tuesday morning. Ryon had to be gone that day to Abilene but I ended up going anyway. After Essure there is a big possibility of a tubal pregnancy. And if the baby wasn't in my uterus, but in my tube, it was going to have to be surgically removed. So we were nervous and I needed to check everything out as quickly as possible. So I went by myself. I was nervous. I walked into that room, the room I never thought I'd ever be in again and looked up at that big screen prepared for the worst. Prepared for either a surgery coming up or at the very least no heartbeat. Fear took over any excitement I had. And then she scanned in, and simply said, The baby is in your uterus. It's in the correct place. And there's not anything else growing in your tubes. Good news. And then we could see the heartbeat. We could see the heart fluttering but couldn't hear it. After a little moving around the sound came. A strong heartbeat. This little blob had a heartbeat. I teared up. I was in shock. God had picked me one more time to be a mama. 

I was scared but oh so thankful. Another Baby! 

I left in shock and told Ryon over the phone. I think we were both able to smile for the first time in days and soak up what was really happening. November was a blur, and we were secretive not telling anyone. We had another sonogram Nov. 8 and Ryon got to come and we were able to experience this new life together.  Due June 15. Oh how your world can change with just two pink lines. 

We waited a few more weeks til I was almost 12 weeks to tell the boys and our families. We shared our news with the boys outside at the ranch. They immediately hoped for a boy because girls are bossy. But Sutton really wants a girl named Lucy. We told Rick and Teri at the Ranch after Ryon had just shot our first big buck out there. Sutton said, "We saw a shooting star, and we are going to have another baby!" This is how he then told everyone over the phone later that night when we started calling all the family. 

I'm now 18 weeks, the baby moves constantly and Ryon felt a little punch last week. My belly is growing much faster than with my other pregnancies and I'm in pretty much all maternity clothes already. I still crave breakfast food all the time. I've heard the heart beat several times and baby seems to be happy and healthy. We are slowly getting over our shock and getting excited about having another one to love on. I feel like this baby has big things for this world. He/She is so meant to be on this earth and I can't wait to see God work thru him/her. I feel like it's another boy, but considering the circumstances, maybe God has a little girl in our future. Either way, we are excited and nervous!

So sweet baby #4, you are loved! Your life will be full of adventure! You have 3 wonderful big brothers to care for you, to love you, to teach you everything you need to know in life. And you have 2 parents who will do anything in this world to make sure that you know Jesus, you know love, and you know what a great family looks like. We love you!