I went to a Bible Study last night at St. Luke's on a whim. I love when I do this because God always has the right thing to say. It's a study on 1 Corinthians. The question got brought up as to what freedoms do we give up in order to please others? For me I'm in that time of my life where I feel like "my" freedom is running around dictated by two toddlers. In other words, Freedom?! Where?! On the other hand, the talk was a good reminder that I chose this lose of freedom. Well God did really (obviously!) But Ryon and I chose to try to have a baby and I'm choosing to stay at home with them because I'm lucky enough to not need the paycheck. I'm choosing to spend my days in the dirt, making endless meals, and teach my children about every day life. The freedom's I have given up often creep into my thought process during the day though. I'm guilty of this. I'm guilty of thinking about, remember when...I got to talk on the phone to an adult? I got to eat lunch without getting up 20 times? I got to go the bathroom by myself? I got a paycheck and felt that "worth" at the end of a pay period? Ryon and I got to go on dates whenever we wanted? The list could go on and on. But while giving up these so called freedoms I have gained so much more. I have gained memories that will last me and my boys a lifetime. I have gained painted canvases, muddy feet, dirt castles, bike rides, dance parties in the kitchen and endless errands with my two best buds. I can't imagine not giving up all of my old freedoms to have these new wonderful moments in my life. It was a good reminder that even though some freedoms seem hard to give up at times, maybe the alternative is so much better? For me, it has been. I'm thankful that God made me a mom. God made me a mom that didn't desire much more than a happy home with me in it and caring for everyone. This won't always be the case. They grow up. Things will move on. And some of the freedoms that I thought were so hard to give up, will slowly show their face again. So if you are a mama out there struggling with the "remember when I got to do...." syndrome, tell the devil to leave your mind. Pray a prayer of thanks for God giving you this time to just be a mom. There is a season for everything.
It's good for me to read this right now. I'm slightly freaking out about the responsibility I'm about to be entrusted with. But I have to remind myself how hard I prayed for this and remember that despite the sacrifices and life adjustments, motherhood is a true blessing and I'm excited to meet my little boy and watch him grow:)
ReplyDeleteLove you Laine. I will tell you that it's hard, yet the best thing God could ever give to you. You aren't alone when it comes to the craziness that Motherhood brings. Surround yourself with people and blogs that inspire you that tell you that you are normal :) Can't wait for you to be a mommy!
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