Being a Woman

In my Bible Study we finish this sentence all the time, "Being a woman is tough...." No matter where the beginning of that sentence takes you, we've all been there. This week has been a lot of processing for me. Spring Break was long with Mason starting with an eye infection and then Sutton's allergies flaring up again. I don't handle mommy-hood very well when we can't be outside with friends and running around. It was a long week. Tuesday Sutton still wasn't well enough to go back to school, but is doing much better as of yesterday afternoon. Ryon has decided to have his wisdom teeth taken out next Monday. His teeth started hurting really bad to the point he's not eating much so I spent yesterday moving appointments around for him to get him in faster. As a mom and wife, everyone is relying on me to care for them and organize their life. Ryon is a huge help with the boys and very much a hands on dad even after a long day at work but there's still a big part that all relies on me. When the boys are both sick and on breathing treatments, and then Ryon is hurting and needs me at doctor's appointments and then surgery, it's hard to take a moment to myself. Sometimes I just want to sit down and not think or help anyone. That is so very selfish. Last night at 10 pm I finally got in the shower once the house was clean and quiet and used up all the water in Midland County :) And so today I got me a big cheeseburger and a huge sweet tea for lunch. Another thing that has my heart heavy is that I have some very unhealthy friends in my life right now. I have a great friend's husband that is going thru chemo right now. And another good friend rushed her family to Ft. Worth yesterday so her 3 year old son can start chemo treating Leukemia. He will be in chemo for at least the next three years. How do you process that as a mom? I just saw little Whitt at a birthday party a few weeks ago healthy and playing. He is in surgery as we speak getting a chemo port put into his little chest. my heart is heavy. my mind spinning. life is precious. today i'm not even going into mason's room to spank him to go to sleep for his nap. he can talk all he wants. bc he's healthy. and for that i'm thankful. So to me the sentence "being a woman is tough..." finishes with..."when everyone is always counting on you" But because everyone is always counting on you, you simply can't just stop...