Miracles

So the words out...I'm pregnant with our second child. I can't even believe I'm saying it out loud. I don't think really anyone reads my blog, but there you go! We have known for about 5 weeks, so to finally be saying the words out loud is a bit odd to me. I have about five minutes before Mason wakes up so here goes....I'm 7 weeks pregnant. We found out September 12, 2011. Heard the heartbeat on Tuesday, October 11. The heartbeat was 164 beats a minute. Such an amazing sound. I'm sure May 28, 2012. They will be 18 months apart! This pregnancy I have been nervous. Friends around me have had heartbreak at their first appointments with not hearing that sweet heart beat, friends are having trouble getting pregnant, friends are not hearing the heartbeat after hearing it the first time....lots of scary, not good things, happening to the people I love most. So why me? Why do Ryon and I think just think about getting pregnant and are pregnant? That's a big God question that I have. Whatever the reason's, Ryon and I know just how blessed we are. And when I talked our nurse into getting me in for a sonogram early to hear that heartbeat I was so relieved to see the flutter on the screen. I think I'm still in a bit of shock. We planned the pregnancy and are super excited about it, but I'm still not sure how I am going to care for two babies. I can barely take care of one with work and the house and things I am involved in. With mason I was ready for the life change, with this one, I think I'm a bit more nervous because having two kids is adding a whole lot more work and planning. Ryon mentioned again last night that I just don't seem like my happy self....and maybe that's true. It's been 11 months and I'm still not in a great groove of working and taking care of mason and keeping the house up to par. I am happy though, I'm just not good at showing it around the house because all I ever see is my to do list... I'm a part of a wonderful bible study for young moms and I cherish our time together each week. They have taught me to embrace this time while Mason is young and to not worry about the mess so much. I'm sure Ryon would think otherwise :) But the fact that my tupperware is always all over my kitchen floor, and that my makeuup cases are always all over my bathroom floors, and toys are everywhere in the living room, and my shoes are all over our closet...is a blessing. In the midst of it all, I wouldn't want it any other way. Mason is my explorer, and the more he gets into and plays with, the more he learns. As far as sweet baby number 2, pregnancy has been very similiar so far. I'm very nausas throughout the day, I think much more so than with Mason. I notice all day long,a and a lot more at night. I am super tired, and I really enjoy mason's nap time at 4:00 in the afternoons. If I could get it at 2:00 that would be better, but at least I get something. My stomach is expanding. I feel like I'm gaining weight already. Nothing feels good on anymore. My tastebuds are weird. I'm hungry every minute of the day. But nothing really satifies my craving, except a cheeseburger :) Oh, Mason is getting closer by the minute to standing on his own. He is letting go and standing on his own for about 5 seconds now. Yesterday he was playing with a toy and stood up holding it and just stood there for a little bit! It was great.