Inspired to Inspire

So lately I've really enjoyed reading other people's blogs. My friend Taylor introduced me to the most inspiring blog: Visit it Here. I don't know Casey, but she's just a really wonderful Christian woman and mother and I love her creativity and thoughts on the world. She inspires me to be more in some odd way. I know that may sound really odd to most of you, but when your life turns upside down and all of the sudden you add Mother to your long lists of hats you wear, it suddenly becomes the first and most important hat you will ever wear.

And I couldn't be happier

A friend of mine said to me recently that when her kids were young she woke every day telling herself "If I can just make it thru today, I'll be ok." But then she realized those days were never going to end for the rest of her life. She will always be a mother.

A mother of joy. A mother of exhaustion. A mother of worry. A mother of sleepless nights. I wouldn't trade it for the world.

I look back in the first two months of Mason's life and just getting thru the day was tough enough, but somehow I did it. I survived. We all will.

Spending the day with a fussy Mason is better than not spending the day with him at all.

I miss him when I'm not with him. I wish for him to wake up if he seems to sleep too long. This mama needs his smiles. I need his giggles. I need his bath times. What would I be doing without him? I suppose I would be at the office, running down business, and selling millions. Those days were good, I'm not lying, but these are simple. They are happy. They are rolling over, getting stuck, blowing bubbles with a mouth full of oatmeal, and they are quiet moments in the front yard swing.

As far as my faith goes, it is stronger than it has ever been.

I'm not sure why God trusted Ryon and I to care for such an angel. I have a friend named Mai that is struggling to wake up from a terrible accident. She has two young kids and a devoted husband waiting for mommy to wake up and begin her world with them again. She has taught me about prayer. She has taught me about hugging my family and smiling when Ryon walks out the door leaving a screaming baby in my arms. As hard as it is, the alternative is not worth it. I'm thankful for the blessings we have been given in order for me to spend my days with Mason. I would give it all up in order for it to happen.

Inspired to Inspire.

I'm becoming a mother. I'm figuring out what that looks like. I'm working on friendships. I'm joining bible studies. I'm saying yes to lunches. I'm thanking my husband every day for allowing me to care for Mason.