This and That

This morning my heart is heavy for some reason. We've had a lot happen in our lives lately. Ryon spent a week at training in Arizona, which was wonderful for him but hard to be away and have virtually no contact during the day with him. He ended up leaving his training and flying to San Antonio where then I picked him up and we drove to College Station for Tom's funeral. Upon arriving back to Midland that Sunday, we started another work week and then I went to a Junior League Training in Fort Worth last weekend. I am so thankful for the opportunity to go, it's a huge honor to be picked. I learned a lot and got some wonderful ideas from the other League's. We have started our Admissions process and we already have about 70 girls that are interested in joining next year. It will be exciting. We are changing he entire curriculum up so I'm pretty much starting from scratch and getting to redo everything, which is really fun but also a lot of work and responsibility. I've also been working a lot lately. Nothing is really falling into place yet, but I have been showing a lot and trying to finish up my education classes since my license renews at the beginning of March. So that means Ryon has been helping me a ton with Mason. I feel like every other day he's having to come home when I need him to so I can go show or go to a class. Ryon has been so busy with work. He comes home just drained. Business is good though, and for that we are thankful, just a bit tired. Mason's been talking a bit more. He still doesn't say any words other than da but he has his own language for a few words. He knows the meanings of a lot of words though, which makes me happy to know at least he has a brain in there! He says ta for hot and he has started to say ga a lot so we have been working on that. When I say let's get in the car, he goes to the garage back door, outside - to the back door, bath- to our bathroom, mason's room - to his room, mommy's room - our room, hungry/eat - kitchen/highchair area. So he's learning and knows the meanings of a lot of the things we say, he just doesn't vocalize the correct sounds yet. He'll be 15 months on Saturday! We are going to put him in his toddler bed here real soon so we can be ready when the baby comes. The baby is doing great. I'm getting bigger by the second and clothes are starting to get much tighter and more uncomfortable. The baby moves all the time day and night. We have been getting Mason's big boy room set up so we can have the nursary room ready for the new arrival. I'm excited about the baby. I really am. I'm nervous about the changes and how I'm going to be able to take care of both of them but it'll be a fun summer with a new one.

As far as my heart being a bit heavy, being a mom is just taxing on your mind sometimes. I spent the weekend with three fabulous mom's that all have the opportunity to send their children to private school. I loved the conversation and the input I got to hear. Picking schools for my children stresses me out. I know I have a few years, but the private schools start at age 3 here, so it's really not that far away! And then I feel like every other day I read or hear about another kid that's not allowed to have juice, anything non-organic, or gluten free diets, or whatever else is healthier. It's starting to make me wonder if I'm a bad mom or my kid isn't getting what I'm supposed to give him. Mason doesn't snack or get bad food really ever. He gets sometimes a glass of juice a day. Which I have found a diabetic brand of apple juice at heb that has only 5 grams of sugar...pat on my back :) We do eat processed foods though. He loves chicken nuggets and corn dogs and steak fingers. For breakfast if I don't make eggs, he eats french toast sticks, waffles and pancakes. I don't know. My mom was never the "healthy" chef so I'm not sure what bad, real bad or worse... :) Sometimes I just want to let him run wild, drink his juice and not think about how he's going to have to know all his numbers and colors here before I know it...